Brit's Side of February 2 Challenge

Alrighty well...I hate to come straight up and say it but....this week's challenge I actually found WAY harder than I had anticipated it to be! Basically...this past week at work was probably the worst week that I have had since I started working for this company back in March of 2012. Things have just gone so downhill that its hard to find the strength to do much of anything. This is the low-down on the points of last week's challenge!

The challenge: my week in review

1) "explore the things that can stress you out very quickly and de-motivate you to do anything and write those down"

     -The things that unfortunately stress me the most are the things that I really at this current moment in time are things that I cannot control! It is the way that by boss treats me at work! It's degrading and horrible to say the least. So that is something that after much prayer and talking, that I am going to have to find the strength in God to be positive and be the light of Jesus in this place and rely on the fact that God is sovereign and HE will deliver me through this! 

     -The second thing that stresses me out is wrapped up in failure. Not necessarily a huge failure...but even the little ones...not doing something right at work, or not doing something the way that Matthew likes it and he noticed or just picking a stupid fight with Matthew because I am frustrated and then ruining the mood...all of these things really upset me! Another one along these lines are when I go to try and do something physical and I can't do it the way that I thought I would...I get really stressed out and really upset!
2) "explore the things that make you feel happy and like you are on top of the world"

     -Funny enough...completing a good, sweaty hour workout makes me feel like I have a little bit more control in the world! (the hard part is getting my butt to the gym to do said workout

     -Relaxing at the end of the day with the puppies and Matthew and just reading/watching TV and talking about the day/weekend/week and just being together!

     -Writing in my journal/prayer journal. I have so many things that are going on right now in my life that I want to write about...but just cant seem to find the time or sometimes even the words to try and talk about them with someone. I have so many emotions running through my head. Taking the time to sit in the peace and quiet and just write and pray to God really clears my head!
3) "find a way to combine emotional and physical health in one fell swoop"

     -One of the things that I really enjoy is being able to complete a workout with Matthew together! He really helps to encourage me and keep me going when I want to stop! 

4) "each evening before bed, spend 5-10 minutes reflecting on the day and the things you did really good at... and then congratulate yourself and really focus on those small things!"

     -I think that I could have done more on this this week...with everything so screwed up...I was focusing more on trying to put one foot in front of the other!

Next week's challenge: 

     I am excited to try the bedtime yoga! I am always really tight at the end of the day and have a really hard time unwinding and making my brain at least slow down enough to go to sleep! I just looked at the bedtime yoga and I think that it will be really helpful! You know me oh so well Brianna...the first thing I did today when I got stressed and upset about having to go back to work tomorrow was head straight for the frozen cookie dough in the freezer! I stood there eating it until I realized that well...I was only eating it because it is comfort food and I was stressed! So then I stopped...course by then the damage was done! :( 

     I honestly don't know what I would do without you being there to encourage me...even if you are across the entire state of Tennessee! Seeing these posts and knowing that you are reading them and thinking about me...helps more than you even know! I am happy to admit that at the beginning of last week I weighed 193...I weighed on Saturday and it was 190.6 pounds! So I definitely lost some weight....the goal this week is to lose 1-2 more pounds and NOT put that weight back on! I keep going between 188 and 193 and that is just not going to work! I am trying this new thing of getting up early in the mornings to go to the gym! Lets me clear my head before the day, not have to worry about going to the gym after a more than likley hectic day at work and it lets me go with Matthew...which is the best part :) With that being said, I'm off to watch The Walking Dead and get ready for work tomorrow! Praying this is a better week all together :)