The numbers aren't budging. I know exactly why, though. It's so hard to lose weight while you're going out with friends. My goal is to be 182 when school starts next Monday. Ambitious, I know. 2 pounds in a week. But I'm gonna do it!
I walked a lot yesterday after the treadmill, so I got a blister or 2. Soooo, this morning, I only hit the weights instead of the treadmill. I figure my feet could use a bit of a rest after that. (We went to an outdoor concert, which we ended up having to park a mile or 2 away... and then we went to a bar, which also required parking and walking. Stupid Brianna wore the wrong shoes, of course, so here we are. Blistered.)
So today's approach is to count all the calories. If I can't log it, I can't eat it. Haha. But seriously, I want to lose this extra baggage! Although, I love myself the way I am. I just want better for my body so i can live longer. I have a friend who has lost a ton of weight, is currently in the low end of normal for BMI, and has "17 pounds" until she reaches her goal body of actress Krysten Ritter. When she is trying to deny she has body dysmorphic disorder, she says "Well, I want those 17 pounds because then maybe I'll love myself!" and that, kids, was possibly the saddest thing I've ever heard. I told her that she should love herself before the 17 pounds, and that is what I'm trying to do.
So, love thyself enough to track thine own calories.
Yeah.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Almost the end of my summer.
Whew! Where did June go!? And may for that matter! Summer always seems to move so fast and so slow at the same time, ever notice that? I need to cram lots of fun into next week so I can feel like my summer was worth something.
In other news, I did backtrack and gain about 5 pounds of my loss back. That sets me at about 184, which I'm not thrilled about. I'd like to get rid of these four pounds quickly and get back on track to feeling healthier. More than feeling fat or anything, I feel like I failed by gaining a few pounds. That being said, my visit to Knoxville seemed like I was constantly in limbo. I tried to fill it with visits with friends and working at dad's office, but when it came down to it, I really felt like I wasted my summer, without having any real "vacation". So I think my malcontent lead to my eating, and I wish I could go back and do it again (preferably in Jamaica, haha).
But, there ain't no changing the past, so it's time to get back in the habit of eating healthy food that has been prepared at home especially to keep me on track! I'm never very good at losing weight and eating out unless I starve myself, so the best way to combat that is to keep food prepared here at the house so I don't have to worry about it! I also have been trying to do a lot of working out, which I attribute to Brit Headrick, because every day she was with me in memphis, we were in the gym for a minimum of 30 minutes. It was a really good eye-opener to show me I have time to actually do gym AND fun stuff every single day. It also got me back on the horse (so to speak) that I had fallen off of in May. So at this point, I'm just trying to get something done every day so that I feel accomplished and have a reason to eat healthy. Like just now I just completed 30 minutes on the treadmill and some weight lifting!
Alright, this was a very scattered post, but at least I got something on paper for this journal so I can start back on the weight loss.
In other news, I did backtrack and gain about 5 pounds of my loss back. That sets me at about 184, which I'm not thrilled about. I'd like to get rid of these four pounds quickly and get back on track to feeling healthier. More than feeling fat or anything, I feel like I failed by gaining a few pounds. That being said, my visit to Knoxville seemed like I was constantly in limbo. I tried to fill it with visits with friends and working at dad's office, but when it came down to it, I really felt like I wasted my summer, without having any real "vacation". So I think my malcontent lead to my eating, and I wish I could go back and do it again (preferably in Jamaica, haha).
But, there ain't no changing the past, so it's time to get back in the habit of eating healthy food that has been prepared at home especially to keep me on track! I'm never very good at losing weight and eating out unless I starve myself, so the best way to combat that is to keep food prepared here at the house so I don't have to worry about it! I also have been trying to do a lot of working out, which I attribute to Brit Headrick, because every day she was with me in memphis, we were in the gym for a minimum of 30 minutes. It was a really good eye-opener to show me I have time to actually do gym AND fun stuff every single day. It also got me back on the horse (so to speak) that I had fallen off of in May. So at this point, I'm just trying to get something done every day so that I feel accomplished and have a reason to eat healthy. Like just now I just completed 30 minutes on the treadmill and some weight lifting!
Alright, this was a very scattered post, but at least I got something on paper for this journal so I can start back on the weight loss.
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